Flippin' wonderful

Another measly 1lb. I know it's better than nothing and I should be pleased but to be honest I am not. I worked really hard last week, I was brilliant with food, didn't eat any of my exercise points (and there were LOADS - I spent a lot of time on my exercise bike) and I didn't eat any of my saved points either. So I'll be honest and say that I am thoroughly disheartened and fed up that all that pain and denial achieved so little.

I know its sometimes like that but I am still fed up.

I am also fed up that I am still 40% fat. According to those who know more about this than I do I need to be 25% or less to be healthy. That's another 15% and as I can lose 6lb without it changing even 1% I still have a very long way to go.

So I deduce that although 11st 1lb will take me to a healthy BMI it is likely that I will need to drop considerably lower than that to get the fat % healthy. According to the charts 8st 12lb is also a healthy weight for me - which means I am not even halfway yet - I could have another 60lb to go.

People keep saying that I have a larger frame and shouldn't get too slim - but how do we know that? When did anyone last actually see my true frame? The last time I wasn't fat was when I was 20 and I was 9 stone 10lb and still had a flabby belly. So maybe I really do have to try for another 60lb to achieve 'good health'.

If you saw that show with Jamie Oliver on 4 last week - Eat To Save Your Life (available on 4OD until 15th February if you missed it) - they found that some of the slim people had more fat (and more than is healthy) than the fat ones because it was all stored around their organs - where it is really dangerous.

I am so fed up with spending an inordinate amount of time making meal plans, shopping for 'fresh ingredients', chopping sodding vegetables and 'dry frying' bloody onions. I worked out that I average about 2 hours a day in the kitchen cooking 'healthy and nutritious food'. That's a day a week - and half the time the adapted recipes are vile anyway.

I would really like to have a week where I don't have to spend all week actively thinking about, preparing and not eating enough bloody food.