Another one pound week

Another slow week this week. Not down to me seeking solace in sweets though I am pleased to say. More likely down to having not been able to swim because it's half term and having Halloween parties on both Saturday and Sunday where despite being good I wasn't saintly :-0

Back in the pool this week, off for a swim shortly.

Still got a boot full of Jes's things as we still can't face unloading it. There is something comforting about driving around with his stuff, makes him feel closer.

Saddest yet

I spent Sunday and Monday helping Jes's sister clear his boat ready to sell it. If you have ever had to do this then you will know how gut wrenchingly sad it is, and if you haven't then I hope you won't ever have to.

This is really saying goodbye and it is just awful.

Emotionally I am at my lowest since I started shrinking and the urge to seek comfort in sweet sugary food is intense. I am aware that chocolate will not really help me in any way but it is still hard to say no. Next week's weigh in will tell us if I have managed to keep refusing.

End of month 2

I can hardly believe that I have been doing this for two months already. Two months and two stones (well, two stones 1.5lb to be precise).

I have an amazing 43 sponsors, two of which are a direct result of the article in the newspaper (so it was worth it) and several who are friends of my dear father who have no doubt been pestered into sponsoring me - an extra thank you to them. Current total stands at just over £730.

This month has been much calmer than last. For a start we have had fewer social events which has helped but I am also more used to saying no!!

I am starting to really notice a difference. I have dropped almost two dress sizes now and have been clearing out clothes like mad. Fortunately a good friend is also dieting and is several sizes ahead of me and has loaned me some trousers - it seems such a waste to buy clothes when you are going to spend such a short amount of time in them. Graham has also managed to drop a size which is just as well as I am now wearing his jeans!!

Starting to think about Christmas now - if you are stuck for cards Cancer Research has a fantastic selection available in their shops from £2.99 per pack (think they are packs of 12).

Thanks again to you all for your support

Ellen

Slower week

Only 1lb this week but considering we ate out twice on Saturday I'm really not upset - quite relieved really!!

Last night we went to see Kate Rusby at the Hawth - Graham is a big fan and suggested going. She's not really my cup of tea but it was an evening out. How surprised I am. She was mind blowing. If you haven't listened to her I urge you to do so. She has a beautiful, haunting voice and I found myself crying on several occasions. During her finale 'Blooming Heather' (a rework of the classic Wild Mountain Thyme) I was in floods. Couldn't get Jes out of my mind.

So I'm feeling a bit emotional today - crying again just writing about it.

Pavement hell

As I couldn't swim on Weds (school tour) and Friday are hell as all the schools are in the main pool I decided to try rollerblading home from pre-school. What a 'mare. I know the roads in the borough are atrocious but I had never paid much attention to the pavements before... I am grateful I don't have to try and drive on them! They are AWFUL. Not to mention the piles of leaves adding to the treacherous journey. Still - I worked up a sweat so not all was lost!

a better week & 10%!!

Looks like some of last weeks weight caught up and came off this week - phew!! Had another exercise rich week and food was again kept under the max allowed.

Even better - I have now lost 10% of my starting weight!! I have also dropped a dress size. Cool.

Rollerblading yesterday was BRILLIANT. I can go really REALLY fast now - AND I can stop - all together a result!!