Struggling

I'm completely demoralised by last week's failure to lose anything. Because I worked so hard it feels even more unfair. Monday was my worst diet day yet - not so much in what I ate but my attitude. I've been trying all week to pull it back together but I still feel really bad about it all.

Not being helped by a case of wine appearing on the doorstep yesterday, of which significant sampling was made last night and now I have a rather poorly head :-(

I also got very upset about Jes last night, particularly about the failings of the health service to diagnose and then treat him. I understand it's the angry stage of grief.

So I'm not holding out much hope for this weeks weigh in. 80lb is definitely not going to happen but I might still make 70lb. I have to stop pushing myself unrealistically and focus on how well I have done. Little self-pep talk there.